Example of An Actor Sabotaging His Acting Career Because of Past Life Trauma
Joe came to me after he could not secure work as an actor in spite of the fact that he was very talented, with a degree in theater and film from the very best universities. He had a good agent that sent him to quite a few auditions. He felt he somehow managed not to give his best in auditions.
We checked if he had some kind of subconscious sabotage. Joe believed that this was a result of past life trauma. So, we checked muscle strength with the affirmation: “I have a past life trauma related to acting” – strong muscle, “yes.” We narrowed it down to Ireland in the beginning of the 20th century. “I was a woman then” – strong muscle, “yes.” “I was an actress” – strong muscle, “yes.” “Trauma in Ireland in the 20th century” – weak muscle. Indeed, this trauma still affected Joe energetically.
After this session, Joe had a dream when he was a successful actress, who was very successful but then became an alcoholic and had a traumatic death. He decided to Google for famous Irish actresses in the beginning of the 20th century. He found out the story of Molly Allgood, who was a brilliant actress at Abbey Theater in Dublin. Two of her closest relations died, and she became an alcoholic and died from burns she received after falling into the fireplace of her home.
Joe was, to some degree, shocked by it, but on the other hand, it explained to him his previous fascination with everything Irish, and his intolerance of people who drink alcohol. As a small child, he could not stand when his parents were drinking and gave them hell, screaming for them not to drink. He also was afraid to get close to the fireplace. So now that Joe knew the trauma and the early death of her fiancé and then her husband, we were able to proceed with testing and releasing the subconscious sabotage to release the trauma.
When he stated, “I want to release the trauma” – muscle was weak, “no.”
“I deserve to release the trauma” – weak muscle, “no.”
We also found out with muscle testing that his father in that lifetime as Molly, did not deserve it, as he was a strict Protestant who condemned his girl’s love of song and dance. He died when she was 10, and she was put in an orphanage.
John Synge, the playwright, was in love with her, and they were engaged against his family’s wishes. However, he died shortly thereafter, and she was heartbroken. So, when we checked “Synge deserves for me to get over this trauma,” again the muscle was weak, “no, he did not deserve.” Her brother also did not deserve for her, as he died in 1915 in World War I. She started to drink after his death, as she was very attached to him.
Molly’s first husband, Mair, a journalist, died suddenly in 1926, and he, too, did not deserve for her to release the trauma. Her second husband, the actor Sinclair, divorced her, and her son died in a plane crash in 1942. All of those did not deserve for Joe/Molly to get over the trauma, except for Sinclair, who for whatever unknown reason did not sabotage the release of the trauma. In his case, as we were able to find the actual previous past life for Joe (or the trauma in the collective unconscious, for those who do not believe in past lives), we were able to remove these blockages with detailed and specific Forgiveness Affirmations that were very effective to remove the sabotage even with Short Forgiveness Affirmations.
Joe was able to forgive Molly’s fiancé, first husband, brother, and son for dying by saying the following forgiveness affirmation: “I forgive you for dying on me and causing me such terrible heartache. It is not logical to be angry at people for dying, and therefore I had to suppress the anger. I choose to release this anger and forgive you, as I knew it was not your choice, and you did not intend to break my heart by dying.”
This was enough to turn the weak muscle to strong, when we re-checked for: “My brother deserves for me to release the trauma.” “My fiancé deserves for me to release the trauma.” “My son deserves for me to release the trauma.” “My first husband deserves for me to release the trauma.”
We then returned to do a more detailed Forgiveness Affirmation for Molly’s father. “I forgive my father for being so strict and for not allowing me and my sisters to sing and dance. I also forgive him for dying when I was 10 and causing me to be put in an orphanage.”
Forgiveness Affirmation for herself, Joe/Molly, stated the following: “I choose to forgive myself for starting to drink after the death of my brother in 1915. I was so sad, and I had to continue acting, so alcohol helped me numb the pain.
“I forgive myself for marrying Sinclair only six months after the death of Mair. I knew we were not good for each other, but I was afraid to be alone, and I forgive myself for that.
“I forgive myself for not being careful and falling into the fireplace. I was drunk at that time, and I forgive myself.”
Now, the muscle was still weak when re-checking for “I deserve to get over the trauma,” and Joe, knowing the biography of Molly, started to think what else needed to be covered. Finally, he said: “I forgive myself for not being more supportive and in touch with my sister. She was jealous of me and my acting career. She was also a brilliant actress, but I did not make any effort to be in touch.” Still a weak muscle, so back we went to look for more feelings of guilt and/or shame, or not feeling good enough.
We tried: “I forgive myself for fighting a lot with Synge and for not pushing him to marry me earlier. I forgive myself for not pursuing education and for not being more involved in politics.”
Now the muscle was strong when we checked, “I deserve to get over this trauma”. It was also strong with “Others deserve for me to get over this trauma.” But, it was weak with “God deserves for me to get over this trauma.”
We tried: “I forgive God for all the tragedies I had during my lifetime, for taking away the people that I loved, for allowing so many people to kill each other during this terrible war. I choose to understand that God is not the God I was taught about in school, the punishing father figure. I choose to believe that God is giving men free will and that God is just pure intelligence, unconditional love, and is not intervening in the course of life.”
The muscle was now strong with “God deserves for me to release this trauma,” but was weak with “It is safe for me to release this trauma.”
Joe started looking back at his past life as Molly and thought that maybe holding on to the trauma guaranteed that he won’t drink when feeling devastated, will be kind and supportive to fellow actors, and will be careful around fire.
He came up with the affirmation: “I choose to believe that I can do all of these without needing to hold on to this trauma. I don’t like to drink. I can be kind and supportive and loving to the people close to me and careful around fire and around other potentially dangerous things. So, I choose to believe it is safe for me to release this trauma, and this is my choice.”
Now, the muscle was strong when re-checking, “It is safe for me to release this trauma.” It was also strong with, “I can imagine myself releasing this trauma right away;” with, “There is 100% subconscious support to release this trauma;” and also with, “I want to release this trauma.”
However, it was weak when we checked: “Trauma in Ireland, 20th century.” We checked EMT for different types of interventions to release the energy of the trauma. “Visual Field/Kinesiology” was strong, so we proceeded. It took a long time, about nine minutes, but as all muscles in the visual field became strong, we knew we were done. Indeed, the muscle was strong when we re-checked “Trauma in Ireland, 20th century.”
Joe’s felt that his performance during auditioning significantly improved and his acting career was on the rise.